• ..my knight in shining armor
• ..the one who i turn to regardless the situation
• ..the one who forgives me over and over
• ..my rock
• ..my heart
• ..my soul
• ..the one who cures all
• ..my shield & my sword
• ..my Father
• a listener
• a giver
• the Most High

I, am probably the worst Christian I know. I don't keep promises, I go out and destroy my body everyday. Lord please forgive me for all I have done. I am Yours.

So I shout out your name, from the rooftops I proclaim,

that I am yours, I am yours..

And all that I am, I place into your loving hands

And I am yours, I am yours..

when all else fails.

these past couple weeks have been absolutely crazy!
keeping up with my life is almost as hard as learning how to tie your shoes!


i'm not sure if i'v gotten in over my head or not. with:

• small group leader
• school
• work
• leadership at Axis
• meetings involved with that as well.

i absolutely love it, but i'm not sure if i am organized.

we're leaving in the morning, at 5:30am to go to UNLEASHED

at Newspring, in Anderson, SC. Church of pastor Perry Noble.

          i am totally stoked, he is an amazing pastor and I cant wait to see him.

          ..however the part about the time were leaving, im dreading it.

           Jacob Jones and I are car pooling and headin down together.. this could get interesting!

                   he's pretty much like my brother so i know we'll make it a good time.

I am so glad i had decided to be a small group leader, it has really help with me connecting to other single females and to be able to share my testimony as well as theirs. I really think that we can all become closer, together because of God's word. He has laid it on my heart to teach these women how to be 'The Young Lady in Waiting,' and we've completed 2 weeks out of 10 so far. It's amazing to see how women that you barely know can open up like they're your best friend. 

..even when you're down in the dumps and it seems like all else has failed, God is there.

 

"For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do."

Ephesians 2:10

temperament.

definition:

–noun

1. the combination of mental, physical, and emotional traits of aperson; natural predisposition

.

2. unusual personal attitude or nature as manifested bypeculiarities of feeling, temper, action, etc., often with a disinclination to submit to conventional rules or restraints.

When I woke up this morning, I prayed to God that I tried my best today not to get an attitude or temper with anyone; especially because I had to work today.  Needless to say, my night at work went absolutely terrible  When I thought matters couldnt get worse, they did.... and it kept on happening.  I was cursing and making a fool of myself.  I completely lost my train of thought and the Devil got a hold of me.  Even when I was driving home, I was still angry.  I thought, "OF COURSE everything would go wrong on my last night at work." Considering I'm off all weekend-

When I got home, a friend of mine had finished the artwork he was working on for me.  He uploaded it to facebook and as soon as I saw it, all my anger, attitude and hatefulness just disappeared.  I could not believe the work he did for me.  I felt so ashamed for acting so rudely, not only toward my patients, but towards God.  God has always looked out for me, and I acted like a pure fool today.  All I can do is ask for forgiveness.  I wanted to try to go throughout my day today and just be a joyful person, and could not do it.  i let people get to me so easily its ridiculous.  

Trey's artwork really opened my eyes.  I have never seen something so beautiful in my life, and I am so thankful he was my "reality check" tonight.  God is my Savior, and I am forever grateful that he guides me onto the right path and does not lead me astray.

isn't it beautiful?

Top Five Temptations Single People Face When Considering A Relationship

the wise words from Perry Noble, Senior Pastor at NewSpring Church in South Carolina.

#1 – Compromise! Hands down this is the first temptation…and I would argue that it is the girl that deals with this way more than the guy.  She begins wanting “Mr. Right” but will settle for “Mr. Right Now” if she perceives that all of her friends are getting married and she is not.  God has NEVER called His followers to compromise…EVER!!!  (And…ladies…if you are constantly having the defend the guy you are dating, then you know you are compromising.)

AND…ladies…if he is not pursuing you in a godly manner (which means he is not constantly trying to stick his hands down your pants) then drop him!

#2 – Believing That Marriage Will Solve The Struggles You Are Facing While Dating! Marriage is a magnifier…and if it is a small deal when you are dating then I promise it will be a BIG HONKIN’ deal when you tie the know!

#3 – Going Too Fast! Anyone can fool anyone for a short period of time!  You need to date someone “until the new wears off!”  If two people are in a hurry to get married then it is usually because they are trying to hide something from the other person…or because they just want to have sex!

#4 – Trying To Be The Person That The Person They Are Dating Wants Them To Be Rather Than Who They Are – If you are having to lie about who you are to date someone…then you need to break up today!  Ladies…DO NOT SAY you love football and want to go to games with him if you don’t know the difference between the offense and the defense.  Dudes, DO NOT SAY you absolutely LOVE chic flics and want to watch them for hours if doing so drives you crazy!  If you are doing things you HATE to do…but have refused to be honest and tell the other person the truth…then you are being dishonest with them.

#5 – Seeking Advice And/OR Affirmation From The Wrong People! Single people…please, if you want marriage/dating advice…then go to people who are actually married and have been so for a long time!  Why in the world would you ask a single person for marriage advice?  Why would you ask someone who has literally blown through relationship after relationship how to have a relationship?  Because they read a book?  Because they know some Bible verses?  REALLY?  If you want to know how to have a successful relationship…ask those who have one.

hey guys.

i just wanted to let you guys know that i am still alive! haha.
school & work have taken control of my life.
i will post more later!
have an amazing weekend.

everything happens for a reason.

"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: 

a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot,

a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, 

a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, 

a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and time to refrain, 

a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and time to throw away,

a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak,

a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace." Ecc. 3:1-8

It took me a while to figure out why some of the things that happen in my life, happen.  Why does God put me through something, I have been through time and time again?  I have really struggled with that question over the past couple years. I still, to some extent do not know why God puts me through things I really don't think I can handle.
There are certain reasons why people come into our life.  But I think that we don't realize what reasons  those are.  We misinterpret what reasons why they come into our life and put them in positions that we think will work and wont.  For an example. I have known Philip for 5 years.  We have kept in contact, at random occasions and then finally a couple months ago we decided to see each other again.  We were friends, just hanging out and having a good time.  He brought me to know God and helped me with my relationship towards God.  He has been my personal savior, besides the Lord of course.  Philip and I had decided to take it a step further and date.  I really thought for a while that he was "the one." I'm not sure if thats because I thought I was so ready to want a relationship and want to be married and happy that I put him into that position whether he was the right one or not. After flying out to California and being with him for a week, after not seeing each other for about a month, it was definitely an eye opener. After long thought and contemplation about being with Philip, we had decided to just be friends.  I really thought for a while i'd be upset about it... but i know that God brought Philip into my life for a different reason other than being my boyfriend.  Philip is an amazing person, probably one of the most amazing people I know.  I thank God everyday for bringing Philip into my life.  God does things in our lives that at first we just don't understand, but we have to trust him that he does the right thing for us. Philip might have not been "the one" for me, but he came into my life for a reason and I'm not going to let him disappear out of it.  If you ever doubt God because of the things he puts you through in life, then you need to build your relationship with him. You have to trust Him on the things he is doing because everything does happen for a reason, sometimes you just have to be patient enough to see it. So trust God in everything He does, because He does have the answer, you just have to put faith in Him.

prayer.

over the past couple weeks, i have learned not just to pray for myself and things that only regard my life. there are other people in this world that need prayer more than myself. i have put together a small list of what i have chosen to pray for tonight. things that clearly stick out in my mind. i know that i could seriously put more down, and i will if i think of them. i hope that God hears my prayers and speaks to me in many ways, that will not only answer my prayers, but shows me the ways i need to walk, in this life of mine. I hope he shows me the passions he has chosen for me. 




prayer list:

• YWAM Pismo Beach & Central Coast.
• my personal life with my boyfriend.
• struggling families.
• God & our government.
• relationships towards others.
• positive influences on people that I come in contact with.
• helping Christians teach the Word of God and show non believers to the path of righteousness.
• judges and the decisions they have to make.
• the Holy Spirit in my friends and family.
• people who are "disliked" by the culture around us.
• showing respect towards everyone.
• the sick.
• the servants on mission trips.
• favor.
• peace.
• my faith.
• building new relationships.
• God placing a passion in my heart as well as hearts around me.
• growing knowledge of God & the Bible.
• obedience.
• what is my plan in Gods eyes.

-if you would like to add more, then add a comment and i will keep your thoughts & prayers in mind so that i will pray for you as well. God please grant me the serenity to accept the things that I can not change, the courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference.  You are an amazing Father, Teacher, Leader and so many other things God. Thank you for everything you have done in my life Lord. Teach me to be a stronger Christian and to accept the things I can not change, for you have put those struggles into my life for a reason. Please help me gain knowledge in those things so I can understand who you are molding me into the servant you want me to be Lord.